free babies!!!!!:D:D

[Snake lover 3-25]

they are all dead!! all of them!!! no!!!! please!!!! no no no!!!!

[jitami]

Were they ok when you brought them back inside? There really could be a gas leak or something along those lines. Is there anyone else home with you?

[Snake lover 3-25]

no they are not ok!!! they are dead!!! i tried everything!!!!! they are gone!!! nononono!!!!!

[jitami]

I know... and I'm so so so sorry...

[GartersRock]

Oh wow, Shanley.... I am so sorry... I can't imagine what happened... Wow...

Just calm down and breath. There is nothing you could have done. It's ok...

So sorry...

[SpyrotheGartersnake]

t'm so sorry Shanley, it must hurt really bad for it to come to this

[Snake lover 3-25]

thank you everyone..... i am sorry.... especially for those of you who were promised babies..... i just don't know what to do..... with them... with my self.....

i told so many people..... what will i tell them now...... i talked of them every day..... what will they think when i just fall silent? what new names will my siblings call me? how will they taunt me next time we fight? how many times will i be reminded of this terrible day? a day that i must keep in my heart for ever.

people keep telling me that you have to live and learn.... but how will i ever have babies again? how will i feel next time i see one up close? i don't think i can.... i love them so much... but i will be so afraid to try again.... i may let the gravid wc snake go.... i don't know what to do...... i feel like i should spend time cherishing the ones i have left....

i will remember those 15 forever..... how they acted.... how fragile they were.... how sweet and calm some were and how active and strong others were.... how some hid in corners... and others came out to explore.... how different they each were.... and most of all, how they smelled when they were gone.... it seems like i can't remove the smell from my hands.... i just can't get it off.... make it go away.... i will always remember that smell.... the smell of those 15... those innocent, fragile, beautiful, babies..... the smell of death... one that i am at COMPLETE fault for.

[jitami]

Shanley, I really don't know what to say. Don't worry about what other people think or even what your siblings say. Let karma get to them in it's own time. Unfortunately things like this happen to all of us. If it hasn't happened to them yet, it will. In time you will be ok with other babies, but yes, you'll always remember these.... these will always have a special place in your heart. (((hugs)))

[Snake lover 3-25]

thank you.... i don't know what else to say.... i don't know what to do.... i feel like i'm walking around like a zombie... i have never had a garter die on me... never... people kept asking me what was wrong at work and i didn't know what to say.... so i lied... and told them that i was tired... if i did tell them the truth i would break down.... and i can't cry any more.....

[Garter_Gertie]

Shanley, things affect us more the yonger we are. I'm not trying to talk to you in a condensending way, but to just tell you what I, myself, have learned. Not that it will hurt less when you're older, but you'll understand better? Be more philisophical about it? I don't know. But it will be a bit different.

I am so sorry for your loss. I cry for you and want to hug you. I'm so sorry yo're having to go through this. It will get better, sweetheart.

Hugs and love to you.