thanks.... thank you so much.... i don't know what i'd do with out kind understanding people like you here.....

i have just never felt like this..... i have never been fully responsible for killing somthing.... i think that's why it hurts so bad...... i just wish i had brought them in with me..... and the stupidest part is that i thaught about bringing them in and then decided not to......

but please.... please... don't feel bad for me... if you must feel bad feel bad for them.... the 15 perfect souls.... that lived such a short life....